Life right now.

So things in my getting better with time! I am about to start school.....yay!! I was made asst. manager at my work so that's a little better. Things are coming along with the room/mini apartment we have. We just got done moving a lot of stuff around and now it feels more like an apartment instead of a room. we just used furniture to section off parts if the room to make mini rooms. I'm starting to get all my debts out of the way so I can soon start getting things that me and Ricky need....and soon he should be able to get a job so that would help a lot. I'm just really happy with things right now and I'm glad that they are starting to turn around. I feel 10 times better about everything right now and I know with the way things are going that they are going to keep getting better!!! Well I'm going to go now!!! Bye!
Nicole

Trying to get my life on track

So I have been thinking a lot about my life and where it's at right now and everything that has happened in it and I'm happy for the most part but there are some things I want to work on and change. I'm happy with my realtionship and it's the best one I've ever had and we are getting married in less then a year now and that is all on track like it should be. I have the best friend anyone could ask for. I love her to death and would do anything for her. She has always been there for me and I know that she always will be. But somethings eat away at me. Like the fact that I got kicked out of high school because I was trying to get out of a living environment that no one should have to go through and it wasn't cuz of my mom so don't think that. So I move out when I was 16 and moved in with Ricky(my fiance) and they kicked me out cuz they didn't want to call one school and get my records. So I had to settle with getting my GED....well it's been a little over year since I got kicked out and I still haven't gone and gotten it so I just decided to go to an adult high school in the fall and work to get my dipolma. I am a very smart person and I know it won't be hard. I went to take the GED practice test to do the classes and I scored perfect on all of the tests. I know I can do it yet I'm scared to go back to high school. Come fall I will be waking up in the morning and going to school and then going into work at 3 and being there every night until 9 or 10 and then go home and take care of the house work and my home work then go to sleep and wake up and do it all over again for the week. I know I can do it...I mean I have to do what I got to do but it still scares me. I have been supporting me and Ricky for almost a year now cuz it's hard for him to find jobs cuz of his record but it clears in July and he will be working to but he is also doing school and driving me everywhere cuz I never got my license since I moved out when I was 16 I didn't have an adult signature and then when I turned 18 I didn't have a job and when I finally got one in Sept of last year I had a bunch of back bills to pay and now that they are taken care of I lost my wallet with my birth cert and S.S. card in it and I just now got my birth cert. back....I was born in Cali so I had to find someone to noterize my form with no photo ID. I have been through so much in my 19 years I'm surprised I'm not a bitter old hag. I try to be a postive as I can but sometimes it's hard. I'm tired of caring all this stress around with me and I'm tired of Ricky's little brother lying to everyone(another story...I might write another blog about it) when we went out of our way to get him a job with me and now he is trying to get me fired. Well I have news for him if it comes down to the two of us I know the manager will keep me. He has no idea what he is doing and he has been there for over a month. Anyways....I'm just tired of being stressed all the time and then taking it out on Ricky when he did nothing wrong. All he has done is tired to help everyone and they talk shit about him. I'm tired of holding grugdes with some of his ex's....I don't care so why do I have to torture myself with them. Well really only one but still it was over a year ago....I think it is time to just drop it and stop bring negitive energy in my life. I don't need it and I don't want it. I'm going to start trying to be more positive from now on. I think it would really help my life a lot. I don't want or need drama in my life and if someone brings it to me I am going to tell them to take it somewhere else. But thats all I have to vent about for now! Thanks for reading!
~Nikki~